Sleeping all night is no longer possible. During the day, I try to make up for it. My mind is not as tired as my body and is usually still going at normal speed, noticing all the things that I would like to get done. My body has other ideas. I have to stop, if only for a few minutes.
It’s often said that the sleeplessness of late pregnancy helps mothers prepare for the sleepless nights to come. This always bothered me. Prepare for being tired by being tired? Seems like saving up sleep like a hibernating bear would be a better idea. But there is something true about the irksome comment. I am preparing for a different pace of daily life. One that is driven not by what needs to be done in my eyes but by a very small person’s very basic needs. For now, I have to ask for help doing things that I am used to doing myself and more often than I’m used to say,”No. I can’t do that today.” And put my feet up whenever I can.
Simple Technical Information: A photo like this, with only a small part in focus, is produced by a wide open aperture. (Aperture refers to the size of the opening inside the lens that allows more or less light to get to the sensor as the photo is taken.) When the opening is big, the amount that is in focus is small. The numbers on the camera’s display that refer to aperture are 3.5, 4.0, 45 up to 22 or higher. The smaller numbers mean a wider opening. So, small numbers = small amount in focus. This was taken at 2.0. The smallest number on a lens that comes with a Canon Rebel or Nikon D60 is 3.5. You can still do this, but not as dramatically. If you like the effect, you can buy a different lens that has a larger opening (smaller number).